Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Why do you want to marry me

I told Jobi that I wanted to marry this man. “Who is he?” he sounded concerned. “Don’t be desperate Beji. The right man will come. Don’t lose your patience. Have faith, somebody worthy of you must be around the corner.” I was impatient, desperate and feared losing him, I told Jobi, “And what makes you think he is not the right man?” “I don’t know, he had replied….may be your mental state….you are moving like a fisherman, ready with your hook and net. You don’t seem to be in the right mood of discretion. And what have you found in him that you want to MARRY him??”
I was prepared for this question, “He is smart, intelligent, honest, handsome, etc…..” “Tell me how is he different from the others you liked.” I was hurt, depressed and really had no idea how to explain. “He loves me!!” I had blurted out. “Hmm and what about you?!! Do you love him??” Been hurt twice I was cautious. I was holding the deepest emotions close. I didn’t want to express anything unless I was damn sure. I was quiet. He continued, “Do you know how your life would be after 10years from now? What is your vision? Where are you headed? What do you want to achieve?” I didn’t know. All I knew was he loved me and I needed him. I knew he would love me at my worst. He would accept me warts and all. It was the promise of unconditional love. I didn’t know how to rate that.
Jobi, my brother, was concerned. He was more scared than me. Nothing should hurt his kid sister. And how was he to ensure that.
He confronted Jaison.
“So you would like to marry her?” He started his line of interrogation. Jaison already hearing only about Jobi from me was more or less aware what to expect. “Yes.” He said calmly. “Hmm and why do you want to marry HER? Do you even know HER?” “I may not know everything about her…but I know her enough to know I want to love her for the rest of my life.”
“My sister is a not the regular kind of person. She is abnormal. You cannot expect logic from her. You should not believe that you will ever be able to reason out with her. Her passions and temper fly high. She loves to the point of suffocation. And if you feel that this is just for the beginning, you are wrong. Her unpredictabilities would stay with her. I don’t think a normal human being would ever know what to do with her. And you can’t wish her away. She almost holds you in a spell and even if you wish you couldn’t break away.”
Jaison looked amused.

Jobi continued, “Don’t think I am telling you to talk you out of it. I am warning you. I want to make sure you know what you have at hand. You look like a normal regular person …..Beleive me she would be a difficult person to live with. She is poetic, imaginative, impractical kid!!”

Jaison smiled and answered, “She will be fine with me!!”

Now we all look back and say…..

Me: Ha!! I was right about him. He loves me….unconditionally!!

Jaison: Your brother is really a wise guy. He told me the whole truth. How foolish of me not to have believed!!

Jobi: Thanks Jaison for loving my sister. I know how you feel. Don’t blame me!! I warned you.

1 comments:

poemsnpuja said...

awesome post...aaj fursat me aapko padh rahi thi...such lovely words of love, laughter and life.