how much...how deep...how wide ...is your love for me??

I was very keen to adopt the first child. That was my bit which I wanted to do for a homeless child.

I remember asking him that when we decided to get married. He said he needed time to think. After a couple of days he agreed. This particular commitment seemed to have been quite difficult for him. He said he was not very sure whether he will be able to do justice to the child as its father;though he would try his best. He added he would be comfortable to have his own biological children and that he is agreeing only because I was so keen and adament about it.

I later learnt from him.....he had considered whether it was my own child somewhere which I wanted to adopt.

We didn't adopt any.....afterall I didn't have any children hiding anywhere. There was no point adopting any child half heartedly.

I was both touched and angered when I learnt about his consideration. Touched because his love was pure.....beyond love itself....for me as I was!!

I was angered because he considered I could be promiscuos to have that kind of a consequence.

I claimed his affection and questioned his doubts.

" No my dear!! I don't think you could be promiscuous. You are a righteous person. But life is strange. It makes you vulnerable beyond understanding. If ever vulnerability took over righteousness..... I would care enough to love and heal you."