Our first meeting

It was a beautiful evening of January……13th of Jan 1993 to be precise……I had my first chance meeting with my would be husband….chance…because I was looking for a chance to be introduced to him. What followed was a deliberate attempt from my side to charm……charm him beyond any practical consideration. It was after a recent setback in my romantic adventures. I was in a mood to strike back at the world…..at the cost of anybody’s emotions.

He was more amused than charmed…..and held in his eyes an affection beyond my expectation…….or comprehension. He didn’t grab me……just let me be….he didn’t ask for anything ….just opted to give….and cared for me most when I was at my worst.

My loneliness melted away…..I had a strange confidence in just being myself…..

I was scared……

He was too good to be true….but I was so glad he came…I was grateful..

Shukriya

Kya tha un nigahon mein…
Jo de gaya sahara….?
Kahin mere gam ko…
Kahin bebasi ko….

Apni hi gahraayiyon mein girthe utharthe…
Har khwaab ko khilonon ki tharah toot-the dhekhthe…
Thaq gayi thi….
Toot gayi thi….
Tab kahaan se aaye the thum ??

Na the thum sahaare…
Na the thum kinaare…
Na manzil the…
Na raastha….

Kya the ??
Kyun The??
Kisliye the ??
Haan kuch tho the thum hamaare….

Un aankho mein
Na khwaabon ka kaarwan tha….
Na waasna ki aag…
Sharm se sharmaai tho nahin thi main….
Kuch toote hue khwaabon mein lipti khadi…
Kisi bachchi ki hi tharah nihaara tha thumhe…..

Vishaal lage the thab…
Aur na jaane kyun …
Us vishaaltha mein kho jaane ka mann kar gaya….

Haan mann !!
Kal ki tharah aaj bhi chanchal…

Kuch aagah us chanchaltha ko kiya…
Kuch un nigaahon ko andhekha kiya….
Par kya tha us smith mein jo mujhe muskara kar chala gaya….
Kuch hansa kar chala gaya…
Kuch gudguda kar chala gaya….

Kaun ho thum ??
Koi farishthei ho kya ??
Ya mere khuda ka koi paigaam ??

Thum na kal the mere….
Na shayad kal hoge mere….

Par shukriya jo aaj chale aaye…..